Things have a bit more chaotic then usual … animal escapes, birthdays, birthday trips, animal additions, fencing projects, teacher meetings, court hearings, lots of ‘divorce’ work-found out he’s been stalking my personal calendar since September … which for me is rather scary considering his video surveillance violation last year. Sometimes the “nice guy” isn’t what he seems….. and I’m dealing with the consequences of my actions.

These last few months have been some of the hardest yet with this ‘divorce.’ Although I can’t even call it that…. because my ex never deemed me worthy enough to share the same last name of his and my children. How I didn’t want to see all the not so subtle signs that are now giant billboards that flash through my memory.

They remind me of the choice I made and damn that mom guilt knows how to hit below the belt. I like most try not to give in, and not feed that wolf but the other instead. The quiet wolf, the one that shows my children happy now, thriving now, gaining their voice now, their confidence now, their pride in themselves now…. that’s the wolf I’m choosing to feed.

It’s not easy to do but I try to take time each day and appreciate what we do have together. Nothing is permanent. This chapter too shall come to an end, and with that end I’ll turn the page on that life…. hopefully silencing the other wolf.

So if someone is being still or quiet or silent in your life, they may be trying to feed the right wolf. Reach out. No news might not mean good news, it may sometimes mean help💝

Every once in a while I, like many others, need to be reminded of my own power. This book helps to give me an easy reminderLikHINK LIKE A MONK by Jay Shetty is a good to of mine. It is filled with tidbits that can inspire and ignite. Today re-reading the Fear section and I am reminded that I do not have anything to fear. When things happen in our lives we are quick to classify them as good or bad. We focus on what the outcomes of things may be and all the what if possibilities. It’s when we do this that our fear is winning and we slowly lose our power. I’m not letting fear win anymore.

Pretty sure I’ve been fighting a head cold for over a week now🥴but whateva 🤪

Sooo much to do these days and I just don’t know where to find the time.

I never thought in a million years that the person I choose to dedicate myself to would call me “that bitch” to the people we have known. You know the mother of his four children😒

When leaving a narcissist, I didn’t realize just HOW bad some days could be and how it gets way worse before getting any better.

For anyone out there going through a rough time, stay strong. Focus on the light and watch it get brighter ✨️ 💛